i just had another terrible dream last night. when i woke up, i felt tears forming on my half-closed eyes. it's about someone's death again, and hell, i kept crying and crying in my dream. i thought it was for real. i asked myself why i just realize the importance of a person when he or she is already gone... and still, i don't know why. i'm just thankful to God that it was all but a dream. and i'm afraid of the moment that this nightmare would come true...

oh well. that's life. nothing's permanent in this world. plus, as the saying goes, the only constant thing is change...

anyway, my fisik and math finals are a couple of days away from happening. how i wish i could get a high grade on both, especially on math. damn, i need around 70%, and it's a big pressure for me. if i don't get a good grade, then i'm pretty sure that i'm gonna repeat that subject. shit. i don't want that to happen. who wants to repeat a subject which eats up more than an hour each day of your stay in school? plus, the subject itself is very toxic. believe me.

i have to sleep now, still have to wake up early to go to UP.