dead blog runnin'... grabe, no much updates for the past few days. or weeks rather. busy with so many things. sobrang daming gumugulo sa isip ko. plus, wala na akong masyadong time mag-online. and honestly, parang wala na ako sa mood mag-blog.

kung kelan malapit nang mag-isang taon.

nandito nga pala kanina sina ryan and sherwin. nag-billiards kami sa xybrbowl. grabe, sobrang dalas ko nang pumunta sa lugar na yun. naaadik na yata ako sa billiards. hehe. naglaro nga rin kami kahapon nina rika at maikel, kasama si joanne.

anyway, nagiging paranoid ako ngayon... shit. bakit ganito? oh well. i can't expect all things to happen the way i want to. but hell, bakit dun pa?!

sana di ko na lang... sheesh.

anyway, just read klara's blog. man. here's what hit me.

ok, i lied.

i posted a few weeks back that i’ve moved on.

apparently, that’s not the case.

i find myself constantly thinking, ‘what if...?’ and i hate myself for doing so. i mean, he said it best kanina, ‘past is past...’ but why am i dwelling on it? why am i constantly noticing everything he does? why am i trying my best not to look at him? why, why, why?!

why all the what ifs...?

what if you hadn’t been so cold, klara? what if you hadn’t been so uptight? what if you actually gave him a chance, klara? WHAT IF?!

why are you so affected by everything? bakit ba apektado ka na pinangalanan nilang ‘the klara guy’ yung kotse nya mula sa plate number nyang TKG? ano bang meron?

oo nga, klara, bakit nga ba? ano nga bang meron?

ewan ko rin eh.

(ayan, sabi mo, lagi kang nasa posts ko... you were right after all...)

haay.

honestly, hanggang ngayon, tumatakbo pa rin sa utak ko ang mga tanong na 'yan.

klara, i guess pareho nga tayong di pa naka-move on.