anti-depressant needed

sa totoo lang, lalo na akong nade-depress.

my arki friends and i had our sort of despedida/get-together last friday evening till saturday afternoon, eastwood condo. all of my close friends were there, except for kay. the first people to arrive were drea, gaux, jiddu and jax, followed by jik and meg, then loz, pat, nins and joey, and lastly, ria. we ate, drank and sang with the videoke all-night long till 5:30 in the morning.

we really had fun and enjoyed it, but as expected, i had my emotional moment. when i got drunk and was talking to drea, i released all my thoughts and frustrations, and started to cry. i can't remember everything i've said though, except for a few details that i won't ever forget. i remembered myself talking to drea, lozzie and schidz.

to them, a lot of thanks for comforting me. sobra.

when it was time for us to go home, i suddenly became speechless. quiet. tulala. walang masabi. i'm pretty sure they've noticed my change of mood. patrick even tried to comfort me. thanks dude.

all of them hugged me so tight when we said our goodbyes. i couldn't react. tulala ulit. halos di ako nakapagsalita. naramdaman na rin nila yun. siguro.

nakaka-depress. there were still many happenings and thoughts that ran through my head that past two days, but i guess i’ll just keep them to myself now. some are happy, yet some are not.

when i got home, ryan and rika kept me company till 8 in the evening. too bad dino wasn't able to come, yet he texted me yesterday, and i just read his ym messages just now. again, lalo akong na-depress, but at the same time happy, coz we had contact again. dinsky, thanks a lot.

and finally, i just moved some of my stuff to my grandparents' house a while ago, including my drafting table, cd rack and my sister's desktop computer. do i still need to say how it felt?

ang lapit na...

guys, sorry for a very sad blog this past few weeks. promise, i'll try to lighten up the mood here as soon as possible.