on friendships

6:38 pm. just got home from work. damn tired. it's been a very long day. not to mention some people pissin' the hell off of us.

well, i've decided to quit my job. i'm getting sick of it actually, but that's not the reason i gave them. i don't want them to know that i'm done with this crap going on coz they'll just tell me to just not mind it and hang on. i'll be leaving for florida this may, and stay at my aunt's place (i haven't seen her for a very long time now). i so cannot wait to get there. and of course, weather there is way too better than here, so i might as well grab the opportunity of feeling hot and humid again like i used to.

the sad thing though is that i'm gonna leave all my friends there. yup, i've made great bonds with some of them, and i know they're upset coz i'm leaving them. i felt so sad when ebony told me that she might cry when i leave. and, i have no idea if mike already knows about it. he's like my best friend there.

i've learned a lot from them. especially that i'm still adjusting to my new life here. they really help me. and they're my first friends ever here in america.

the feeling's back. the feeling i had when i left my filipino friends almost 3 months ago now. so painful.

and so the friendship topic goes. i was browsing my blockmate's blog a long time ago when i felt like clicking the link to one of his friend's blogs. her comments to him kinda intrigued me, so i went to her page, and there. i found out she moved here also, but in new york. i read one of her posts about missing her friends she left.

yup, i so agree with what she said. i'm feeling it right know. i have friends here now, but i miss the tabing-ilog (as she puts it) kind of friendship, where your friends are friends too. barkada. i don't have it here. and i've left a lot of them in the philippines.

i was lying on the couch, glued to the tube, when i didn't realize that rika was ym-ing me. so when i got to the computer, she was logged out already, and so i just read the messages she left. but it wasn't her words that hit me. the image she used in her profile was her with two of our friends. best friends to be exact. i just thought, i should have been in that picture with them, wearing the same smile as theirs... but no, i'm too far.

to all the people whom i've shared a lot of moments with at the cinemas, thank you. i'll be back next year.

to all my friends in the philippines, see you all soon. and i mean soon.