new jersey to new york

i don't know how to start this entry. i'm staring blankly on the screen for almost 30 minutes already, and i still can't decide what to write about first.

maybe i should start with my family.

if you guys don't know, i'm the only one who went back here in the philippines. my parents and sister are all in new jersey, working. so now, i'm living in our grandparents' home, with them, aunt and cousin, which is only a street away from ours.

i'm getting used to this setup, though sometimes i still don't feel good about it. i really didn't know the feeling of living with grandparents till i came back and started staying here. it's entirely different than living with your own parents. grandma always waits for me to come home even if i arrive early in the morning. unlike before, my parents just sleep and let me enter the house even without them knowing.

but it doesn't matter anymore. it's better to live with them than look for my own place and do all the decision-making on my own. besides, i'm so lucky to still have them here in the philippines to look after me.

to be honest, i don't talk to my family that often since i came here. a few phone talks and ym chats, and that's it. i dunno why, but it seems like i don't make effort to keep in touch with them. maybe it's because i'm just busy, or that i really don't feel like talking. oh well.

but now, i'm bothered with what's happening back there at jersey. my aunt here told me that my parents already have a new place in new york. which means, all of us will be moving there, and we're now new yorkers. my sister and cousin will also be looking for a new place still around jersey, and it looks like the whole group's splitting up. i'll be definitely staying with my parents at new york then. i think.

you know why they're splitting up? there are so many reasons. so many problems have been encountered since we moved there, that my parents decided to separate from my aunt and live on their own. as for my uncle, i don't know where he's going.

talk about going their own ways, huh. i feel so bad about it. though i really wanted to separate ourselves from our aunt. she's so... nah.

let's see what happens when i get back there. i don't even know when i'll be.

i'm supposed to talk about school also, but i'll just save it for next time.