just like how i felt

had the urge to post again.

i've just read my friend's blog entry. she's gonna have her interview at the US embassy a few weeks from now.

yup, she's leaving.

all the words she've written on the entry hit me in some way.

i was in her place a year ago. and i know exactly how she feels right now... the mixed up emotions, the feeling of wanting to go there but at the same time not, the worries of leaving people you've loved so much here in exchange of being with the people you love there... the life you've had for several years is indeed gonna change.

which reminded me, last january was like depression month for me. and i've just realized that my whole family's gonna hit their 365th day there on the fifth of february... i miss them so much already.

hitting the crossroads... been there, done that. it's hard as it is.

i suddenly feel so low now.

and i also have to leave. yes, i'm coming back, like my friend would do, but still, the inevitable sad feeling of leaving will be there...

you're not yet leaving, but i'm sad already.

so this is how it feels. now i know how my close friends felt when i left...