monday and tuesday

so far, so good.

since the start of this week, i've been doing things that i've actually been planning to do before i leave. at least i get to enjoy these last few days before i ride that plane back to new york.

monday was spent with me going to arki, seeing rap, arni and my ex-batchmates taking up the pre-thesis esquisse. later, i went to my high school best friend's house, and had the chance to finally hang-out with him again after a very long time. we had some isaw, walked around almost the whole campus, took the ikot jeep... some simple things that i haven't done for the past few months because of my busy life.

and then we went to the bonsai garden for erika's mass. there was also a mini program prepared by her friends and relatives, including our upis batch, where we paid tribute to her for being part of so many people's lives. it was so overwhelming to finally see around 40 of our batchmates, that the night turned out as a reunion too.

the program ended around eleven in the evening. we haven't had dinner yet, so jan-lee, dax, amia, ayin, jam and i went to mcdo to grab some stuff to eat. then we stayed overnight at dax's place, and left around 6 in the morning. we've missed each other a lot, so we've decided to hang-out again this thursday. tomorrow, actually. hope it pushes through.

and tuesday was another good day. went to gateway with my bro edpat to catch ice age 2. it was a very fun movie, that we've been laughing for almost the whole time. had dinner after, then came my depression.

when edpat and i parted ways, i've decided to stay, and walked along the sidewalks of araneta. perhaps to think. to contemplate. fortunately, i saw sir nelson (my kom1, panpil17 and 19 professor), alone, checking papers of his students. i sat down on one of the empty seats beside him, and started to share everything that's bugging me. and so, in return, he has taught me a lot of things for that short time we've been talking.

"jason, you can't have everything."

yup, i can't. my friends, the things i want, are here. but my parents, my family, are all there. and i can't be in both places at the same time.

we've talked about so many more things, but they're for me to keep. i'm just so thankful that i saw him that time, coz he really made me feel much better.


two more days.

gotta start packing.